One mad sentence from Neal Cassady

by Jack Brummet

Here is one sentence from madman Neal Cassady's autobiography, The First Third. NC was the star of Kerouac's On The Road and Kerouac was deeply influenced by Cassady's kaleidoscopic, profane, frenzied, letters and writings. Neal went on to drive Furthur, Ken Kesey and The Merry Pranksters psychedelic bus, and linking up the 50s beats and 60s hippies into one continuum.

"Like here it was that I entered that stage when a child overcomes enough to realize an adult's emotional reaction as somethimes freakish for its inconsistencies, so can, on his own reasoning canvas, paint those early pale colors of judgement, resulting from initial moments of ability to critically examine life's perplexities, in tentative little brain-engine stirrings, before they faded to quickly join that train of remembered experience carrying signals indicating existence which itself far outweighs traction effort by thinking's soon slipping drivers to effectively resist any slack-action advantage, for starting so necessitates continual cuts on the hauler - performed as if governed lifelong by the tagwork of a student-green foreman who, crushed under on rushing time always building against his excessive load of emotional contents, is forever a lost ball in the high weeds of personal developments - until, with ever changing emphasis through a whole series of grades of consciousness (leading up from root-beginnings of obscure childish inconscious soul within a world), early lack - for what child sustains logic? - reaches a point of late fossilization, resultant of repeated wrong moves in endless switching of dark significances crammed inside the cranium, where, through such hindering habits, there no longer is the flexibility for thought transfer and unloading of dead freight that a standard gauge would afford and thus, as Faustian Destiny dictates, is an inept mink, limited, being in existence firmly tracked just above the constant "T" biased ballast supporting wherever space yearnings lead the worn rails of civilized comprehension, so henceforth is restricted to mere pickups and setouts of drab distortion, while traveling wearily along its familiar Western Thinking right-of-way. But choo-choo nonsense aside ...”

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The famous Neal Cassady Joan Anderson letter

The Joan Anderson Letter

"In December 1950, Jack Kerouac received the so-called 'Joan Anderson letter' from Neal Cassady. Kerouac later said the letter inspired his new writing style in On The Road. Kerouac thought the letter was lost when somebody dropped it over the side of a houseboat in Sausalito. Apparently he was wrong, as the letter was found in 2014 in an attic in Oakland. It was sold at auction and has not yet been published in its entirety – the following fragment is all that is currently available. In Kerouac’s words:

“..The letter he [Neal Cassady] sent me is erroneously reported to be a thirteen-thousand-word letter … no, the thirteen-thousand-word piece was his novel, The First Third, which he kept in his possession. The letter, the main letter I mean, was forty thousand words long, mind you, a whole short novel. It was the greatest piece of writing I ever saw, better’n anybody in America, or at least enough to make (Herman) Melville, (Mark) Twain, (Theodore) Dreiser, (Thomas) Wolfe, I dunno who, spin in their graves. Allen Ginsberg asked me to lend him this vast letter so he could read it. He read it, then loaned it to a guy called Gerd Stern who lived on a houseboat in Sausalito, California, in 1955, and this fellow lost the letter: overboard I presume. Neal and I called it, for convenience, the Joan Anderson Letter … all about a Christmas weekend in the pool halls, hotel rooms and jails of Denver, with hilarious events throughout and tragic too, even a drawing of a window, with measurements to make the reader understand, all that. Now listen: this letter would have been printed under Neal’s copyright, if we could find it, but as you know, it was my property as a letter to me, so Allen shouldn’t have been so careless with it, nor the guy on the houseboat. If we can unearth this entire forty-thousand-word letter Neal shall be justified.”

Neal Cassady on the Merry Prankster bus Furthur with Dr. Timothy Leary

The Letter:

To have seen a specter isn’t everything, and there are deathmasks piled, one atop the other, clear to heaven. Commoner still are the wan visages of those returning from the shadow of the valley. This means little to those who have not lifted the veil. 

The ward nurse cautioned me not to excite her (how can one prevent that?) and I was allowed only a few minutes. The headnurse also stopped me to say I was permitted to see her just because she always called my name and I must cheer her. She had had a very near brush and was not rallying properly, actually was in marked decline, and still much in danger. Quite impressed to my duties, I entered and gazed down on her slender form resting so quietly on the high white bed. Her pale face was whiter; like chalk. It was pathetically clear how utterly weak she was, there seemed absolutely no blood left in her body. I stared and stared, she didn’t breathe, didn’t move; I would never have recognized her, she was a waxed mummy. White is the absence of color, she was white; all white, unless beneath the covers, whose top caressed her breasts, was still hidden a speck of pink. The thin ivory arms tapered inward until they reached the slight outward bulge of narrow palms, and the hands in turn bent inward with a more sharp taper only to quickly end in long fingers curled to a point. These things, and her head, with its completely matted hair so black and contrasting with all the whiteness, were the only parts of her visible. Quite normal, I know, but I just couldn’t get over how awfully dead she looked. I had so arranged my head above hers that when her eyes opened, after about ten minutes, they were in direct line with mine; they showed no surprise, nor changed their position in the slightest. The faintest of smiles, the merest of voices, “hello.” I placed my hand on her arm, it was all I could do to restrain myself from jumping on the bed to hold her. I saw she was too weak to talk and told her not to, I, however, rambled on at a great rate. 

There was no doubt she was over-joyed to see me, her eyes said so. It was as though the gesture of self-destruction had, in her mind, equalized all the guilt. The courage of committing the act seemed to have justified her to herself. This action on her conviction, no matter how neurotic, had called for all her strength and she was now released. Free from the urge, since the will-for-death needs a strong concentration of pressure to fulfill itself and once accomplished via attempt, is defeated until another period of buildup is gone through; unless, of course, one succeeds in reaching death the first shot, or is really mad. Gazing down on her, with a grin of artificial buoyancy, I sensed this and felt an instant flood of envy. She had escaped, at least for some time, and I knew I had yet to make my move. Being a coward I had postponed too long and I realized I was further away from commitment than ever. Would hesitancy never end? She shifted her cramped hand, I looked down and for the first time noticed the tight sheet covering a flat belly. It was empty, sunken; she had lost her baby. For a moment I wondered if she knew it, then thought she must know—even now she was almost touching her stomach, and she’d been in the hospital for ten days—surely a stupid idea. I resolved to think better. The nurse glided up and said I’d better go; promising to return the next visiting day, I leaned over and kissed Joan’s clear forehead and left. 

Off to the poolhall, back to the old grind; I seemed to have a mania. From the way I loafed there all day one would scarcely believe I’d never been in a poolhall two short years before; why, less than six months ago I still couldn’t bear to play more than one game at a time. Well, what is one to say about things he has done? I never again went back to the hospital to bless Joan, oh, that’s what I felt like; blessing her. Each day I lacerated myself thinking on her, but I didn’t go back. “Sometimes I sits and thinks. Other times I sits and drinks, but mostly I just sits.” I must have been in a pretty bad way.
Anyhow, two more weeks went by in this fashion, my inability to stir from my poolhall prison became a joke, even to me. It was the night before Christmas, about five PM, when a handsome woman near forty came inside the gambling gaol’s gates and asked for me. I went up front to meet her, as I came closer I saw that she was better than handsome, a real good-looker and despite her age, making quite a stir among the boys. She introduced herself, said she was a friend of Joan and invited me to dinner. My heart bounced with guilty joy, I accepted and we walked the five blocks to this fine-though-forty lady’s apartment without talking. The fatherly taxidriver opened the door, my hostess said it was her husband and that Joan would be out in a minute. Preparations for a huge dinner were in the making. I sat on the sofa and waited. The bathroom—ugly word—door swung out and before my eyes was once again the gorgeous Joan, “second” of Jennifer Jones. Fresh from the shower, mirror-primped, stepped my heroine resplendent in her new friend’s housecoat. Just when you think you’ve learned your lesson and swear to watch your step, a single moment offguard will pop up and hope springs high as ever. One startled look and I knew I was right back where I started; I felt again that choking surge flooding me as when first I’d seen her. I started talking to myself, determined to whip the poolhall rut and drag my stinking ass out of the hole. 

Over the prosperous supper on which we soon pounced hung an air of excitement. Joan and I were leaping with lovelooks across the roastbeef, while cabby and wife beamed on us. And we planned, yesir, all four of us, and right out loud too. I was kinda embarrassed at first when the host began without preamble, “Alright, you kids have wasted enough time, I see you love each other and you’re going to settle down right now. In the morning Joan is starting at St. Luke’s as a student nurse, she’s told me that’s what she would like to do. As for you, Neal, if you’re serious I’ll get up a little early tomorrow and before I go to work we’ll see if my boss will give you a job. If you can’t get away with telling them you’re 21—the law says you gotta be 21, you’re not that old yet are you? (I said no) so that you can drive a taxi, you can probably get a job servicing the cabs. That okay with you?” I said certainly it was and thanked him; and everybody laughed and was happy. It was further decided that Joan and I stay with them until we got our first paycheck; we would sleep on the couch that opened out into a bed. Gorged with the big meal, I retired to the bathroom as the women did the dishes and the old man read the paper. (By golly, it seems everything I write about happens in a bathroom, don’t think I’m hungup that way, it’s just the incidents exactly as they occurred, and here is another one, because—) A knock on the toilet door and I rose to let in my resurrected beauty. She was as coy as ever, but removed was much fear and embarrassment. We did a bit of smooching, then, seated on the edge of the tub to observe better as she parted the bathrobe to reveal an ugly red wound, livid against her buttermilk belly, stretching nearly from naval to the clitoris. She was worried I wouldn’t think her as beautiful, or love her as much now that her body had been marred by the surgeon’s knife performing a Caesarian. There might have been a partial hysterectomy too and she fretted that the production of more babies—“when we get the money”—would prove difficult. I reassured her on all counts, swore my love (and meant it) and finally we returned to the livingroom. 

Oh, unhappy mind; trickster! O fatal practicality! I was wearing really filthy clothes but had a change promised me by a friend who lived at 12th and Ogden Sts. So as not to hangup my dwarf cabbie savior when we went to see his buddyboss next A.M., my foolish head thought to make a speedrun and get the necessary clean impediments now. Acting on this obvious need—if I was to impress my hoped-for employer into hiring me—I promised to hurry back, and left. Where is wisdom? Joan offered to walk with me, and I turned down the suggestion reasoning it was very cold and I could make better time alone, besides, she was still pretty weak, and if she was to work tomorrow the strain of the fairly long walk might prove too much—no sense jeopardizing her health. Would that I’d made her walk with me, would that she’d collapsed rather than let me go alone, would anything instead of what happened! Not only did the new promise for happiness go down the drain, and I lost Joan forever, but her peace was to evaporate once and for all, and she herself was to sink into the iniquity reserved for a certain type of beaten women!
I rushed my trip to the clothes depot, made good connections and was quickly on my way back to the warm apartment and my Joan. The route from 12th and Ogden to 16th and Lincoln Sts. Lies for the most part, if one so desires, along East Colfax Ave. Horrible mistake, stupid moment; I chose that path just to dig people on the crowded thoroughfare as I hustled by them. At midblock between Pennsylvania and Pearl Sts. is a tavern whose plateglass front ill-conceals the patrons of it’s booths. I was almost past this bar when I glanced up to see my younger blood-brother inside drinking beer alone. I had made good time and the hard habit of lushing that I was then addicted to pushed me through the door to bum a quickie off him. Surprise, surprise, he was loaded with loot and, more surprising, gushed all over me. He ordered as fast as I could drink, and I didn’t let the waitress stop, finishing the glass in a gulp; one draught for the first few, then two for the next several and so on until I was sipping normally by the time an hour had fled. First off he wanted a phone number—the reason for his generosity I suspect—and I was the only one who could give it to him. He claimed to have been sitting there actually brooding over the very girl on the other end of this phone number, and I believed him; had to take it true, because for the last five months it had become increasingly clear that he was hot-as-hell for this chick—who was my girl. I gave him the number and he dashed from one booth to the other. I had cautioned him not to mention my name, nor tell her I was there, and he said he wouldn’t. But he did, although he denied it later. The reason for his disloyalty, despite the fact that it cost me Joan, was justifiable since as one might when about to be denied a date of importance while drinking, he had used my whereabouts as a lastditch lure to tempt her out. He came back to the booth from the phonebooth crestfallen, she had said she couldn’t leave the house just now, but to call her back in a half-hour or so; this didn’t cheer him as it would have me, he’s richer and less easily satisfied. He called her again, about forty-five minutes after I had first been pulled into the dive by my powerful thirst, and she said for him to wait at this joint and she’d be down within an hour. This length of time didn’t seem unreasonable, she lived quite a ways further out in East Denver. I thought everything was going perfectly. Bill got the Girl, I got my drinks and still had a short period of grace in which to slop up more before she showed (I certainly didn’t intend to be there when she arrived) and I’d only be a little late returning to Joan where I’d plead hassle in getting the clothes. O sad shock, O unpleasant time; had I just not guzzled that last beer all the following would not be written and I could end this story with “And they lived happily ever after.” 

Whoa, read slowly for a bit and have patience with my verbosity. There are two things I’ve got to say here, one is a sidepoint and it’ll come second, the first is essential to the understanding of this story; so, I gotta give you one of my Hollywood flashbacks. 

I’ll leave out the most of it and be as brief as possible to make it tight, although, by the nature or it, this’ll be hard—especially since I’m tired.
Number 1: On June 23, 1945 I was released from New Mexico State Reformatory, after doing eleven months and 10 days (know the song?) of hard labor. Soon after returning to Denver I had the rare luck to meet a 16-year-old East Hi beauty who had well-to-do parents; a mother and a pretty older sister to be exact. Cherry Mary was her name because she lived on Cherry Street and was a cherry when I met her. That condition didn’t last long. I ripped into her like a maniac and she loved it. A tremendous affair, countless things to be said about it—I can hardly help from blurting out twenty or thirty statements right now despite resolution to condense. I’m firm (ha) and won’t tell the story of our five months’ intercourse—with its many incidents that are percolating this moment in my brain; about carnival-night we met (Elitch’s), the hundreds of mountain trips in her new Mercury, rented trucks with mattresses in back, at her cabin, cabins I broke into, day I got her to bang Hal Chase, time I gave her clap after momentous meeting between her and mother of my second child (only boy before Diana’s), time I knocked her up; and knocked it, mad nights and early A.M.’s at Goodyear factory I worked alone in front from 4 P.M. to anytime I wanted to go home, doing it on golfcourses, roofs, parks, cemeteries (you know, dead peoples’ homes) snowbanks, schools and schoolyards, hotel bathrooms, her mother’s vacant houses (she was a realtor), doing it every way we could think of any-old-place we happened to be, in fact, we did it in so many places that Denver was covered with our peckertracks; so many different ones that I can’t possibly remember, often we’d treck clear from one side of town to another just to find a spot to drop to it, on ordinary occasions, however, I’d just pull it out and shove to her bottom if we were secluded, to her mouth if not, the greatest most humorous incident of the lot: to please her mother she’d often babysit for some of their socially prominent and wealthy friends several times a week, I drove out to that particular evening’s assignment, after she called to let me know the coast was clear, (funny English joke; man and wife in living room, phone rings, man answers and says he wouldn’t know, better call the coast guard, and hangs up, wife says, “Who was it, dear?” and man says, “I don’t know, some damn fool who wanted to know if the coast was clear,” har-har-har) and we quickly tear-off several goodies, then, I go back to work; in Goodyear truck, don’t you know. We’d done this numerous times when the “most humorous” evening came up. It was a Sunday night, so no work, I waited outside 16th and High Street apartment till parents left and then went in and fell to it. I had all my clothes off and in livingroom as she was washing my cock in bathroom, (let this be a lesson to you, men, never become separated from your clothes, at least keep your trousers handy, when doing this sort of thing in a strange house—oops, my goodness, I forgot for a second that some of you are out of circulation and certainly not in need of “Lord Chesterfield’s” counseling—don’t show this to your wives, or tell them that I only offer this advice to pass on to your sons, or, if that’s too harsh, to your dilettante friends, whew! Got out of that) there’s a rattling of the apartment door and into the front room walks the mother of one of the parents of the baby Cherry Mary is watching, so fast did this old bat come in that we barely had time to shut the bathroom door before she saw us. Here I was, nude, no clothes, and all exits blocked. I couldn’t stay there for what if the old gal wanted to pee, and most old women’s bladders and kidneys are not the best in the world. There was no place in the bathroom to hide, nor could I sneak out due to the layout of the apartment. Worse, Mary suddenly remembered the fact that this intruder was expected to stay the night. We consulted in whispers, laughing and giggling despite all, and it was decided Mary would leave the bathroom and keep the old lady busy while suggesting a walk or coffee down the street and still try to collect my clothes and get them to me; no mean feat. My task was to, as quietly as a mouse, remove all the years-long collection of rich peoples’ bath knick-knacks that blocked the room’s only window, then, impossible though it looked, I must climb up the tub to it and with a fingernail file pry loose the outside screen. Now, look at this window, it had four panels of glass 6” long and 4” wide, it formed a rectangle of about 12 or 13” high and 8 or 9” across, difficult to squeeze through at best, but, being modern as hell, the way it was hooked to its frame was by a single metal bar in direct center! which when opened split the panes of glass down the middle and made two windows. 

I could hardly reach outside to work on the screen—since the window opened outward—but I pushed and making a helluva noise, split the screen enough to open the window. Now the impossible compressing of my frame for the squeeze. I thought if I could get my head through I could make it; I just was able to, by bending the tough metal bar the slightest cunthair (in those days I cleaned and jerked 220 lbs.) and of course, I almost tore off my pride-and-joy as I wiggled out into the cold November air. I was damn glad I was only on the second floor, if I’d been higher I would have been hungup in space for sure. So I dropped into the bushes bordering the walk along the side of the building, and hid there shivering and gloating with glee. There was a film of snow on the ground, but this didn’t bother anything except my feet until some man parked his car in the alley garage and came walking past my hideaway, then, much of my naked body got wet as I pressed against the icy ground so he wouldn’t see me. This made me seek better shelter sine it was about 9 P.M.—I’d been in the cold an hour—and a whole string of rich bastards with cars might be putting them away. I waited until no one was in sight then dashed down the walk to the alley and leaped up and grabbed the handy drainpipe of a garage and pulled myself up. The window I’d broken out of overlooked my new refuge and if anyone went in that bathroom they’d see the havoc wrought the place and be looking out to see me. This fear had just formed—I was too cold to be jolly now—when I saw Mary at last come into view. She had my pants, shoes, and coat, but not my T-shirt and socks, having skipped those small items as she bustled about in front of the cause of my predicament “straightening up.” The woman had only noticed my belt and Mary had said she had a leather class in school and was engraving it. When I’d bashed out the window Mary had heard the crashing about, (the old lady must have been deaf; while I was escaping kept talking about Thanksgiving turkey!) ***and had come in the bathroom to clean up, close the window and otherwise coverup. I out on my clothes and chattering uncontrollably from my freezeout walked with Mary to the Oasis Café for some hot coffee. And so it goes, tale after tale revolving around this Cherry Mary period; here’s just a couple more: 

At first the mother of this frantic fucking filly confided in me and, to get me on her side, asked me to take care of Mary, watch her and so forth. After awhile, as Mary got wilder, the old bitch decided to give me a dressing down, (I can’t remember the exact little thing that led up to this, offhand anyhow) and since she wasn’t the type to do it herself—and to impress me, I guess—she got the pastor of the parish to give me a lecture. Now, her home was in one of the elite parishes and so she got the monsignor—it was a Catholic church—to come over for dinner the same evening she invited me. I arrived a little before him and could at once smell something was cooking. The slut just couldn’t hold back her little scheme, told Mary to listen closely and began preaching a little of her own gospel to warm me up for the main event. The doorbell rang and her eyes sparkled with anticipation as she sallied forth from the kitchen to answer it. The priest was a middlesized middleaged pink featured man with extremely thick glasses covering such poor eyes he couldn’t see me until our noses almost touched. Coming toward me across the palatial livingroom he had his handshake extended and was in the midst of a normal greeting, the mother escorting him by elbow all the while and gushing introduction. Then it happened, he saw me; what an expression! I’ve never seen a chin drop so far so fast, it literally banged his breastbone. “Neal!! Neal!, my boy!, at last I’ve found my boy!” his voice broke as he said the last word and his Adam’s apple refused to articulate further because all it gave out was a strangled blubber. Choked with emotion, he violently clasped me to him and flung his eyes to heaven fervently thanking his God. Tremendous tears rolled down his cheeks, poured over his upthrust jaw, and disappeared inside his tight clerical collar. I had trouble deciding whether to leave my arms hanging limp or throw them around him and try to return the depth of his goodness by turning to it. Golly and whooooeee!, what a sight!! The priest’s emotion had been one of incredulous joyous recognition, Mary’s mother’s emotion was a gem of frustrated surprise; startled wonder at such an unimaginable happening left her gaping at us with the most foolish looking face I’ve ever seen. She didn’t know whether to faint or flee, never had she been so taken aback, and, I’m sure, didn’t think she ever would be, it was really a perfect farce. Mary and her sister—who was there to lend dignity to her mother’s idea—were as slackjawed as any of us. Depend on sweet Mary to recover fast, she did, with a giggle; which her sister took as a cue to frown upon, thereby regaining her senses. The mother’s composure came with a gasp of artificial goo, “Well! what a pleasant surprise!!” she gurgled with strained smile, feeling lucky she’d snuck out from under so easily. Oho! But wait, aha! She’d made a mistake! Her tension was so unbearable—and she had succeeded so well with her first words—that she decided to speak again, “let’s all go into supper, shall we?” she said in a high-pitched nervous urge. The false earnestness of her tone struck us all as a most incongruous concern and she’d given herself away by being too quick—since her guest was still holding me tightly. 

The ecstatic priest was Harlan Fischer, my Godfather when I was baptized at age 10 in 1936. He had also taught me Latin for some months and saw me occasionally during the following three years I served at Holy Ghost Church as altar boy. At our last meeting I was engrossed in the lives of Saints and determined to become a priest or Christian brother, then, I abruptly disappear down the pleasanter path of evil. Now, six and a half years later, he met me again in Mary’s house as a youth he’s come to lecture. Well, he didn’t get around to the lecture, it never seemed to enter his head because it was too full of blissful joy at finding his lost son. He told me how he’d never had another Godson—it just happened that way—and how he’d prayed every night and day for my soul and to see me again. He could hardly contain himself at the dinner-table, fidgeted and twittered and didn’t touch his food. He dragged the whole story of the long wait for this moment out into the open and before the sullen-hearted (she gave me piercing glances of pure hate when Father Fischer wasn’t looking) mother actually waxed moistly eloquent. When the meal was over the dirty old bitch knew her sweet little scheme had backfired completely for Fischer at once excused himself, saying he was sure everyone understood, because he wanted to talk to me alone, and we left. We drove to his church and then sat in his car for two hours before I got out and walked away, never to see him to this very day, now five years since. He started in with the old stuff, and I, knowing there could be no agreement and not wanting to use him unfairly, came down right away and for once I didn’t hesitate as I told him not to bother; I was sorry for it, but we were worlds apart and it would do no good for him to try and come closer. Oh we did a lot of talking, it wasn’t quite that short and simple, but as I say, I finally left him when he realized there was nothing more to be said, and that was that.
The other incident I wanted to tell you about can wait, I must cut this to the bone from here on out because I haven’t the money for paper. Anyhow, the reason for this little glimpse into the months just prior to meeting Joan was to show there was some cause for what happened to me in the bar with my younger blood brother. Mind you, I haven’t seen Mary’s mother for at least a month before this night in the bar, although I’d seen Mary about two weeks earlier. Ah, what’s another few lines, I gotta break in here and tell you that other funny little thing about C. Mary. It is this; she was such a hypochondriac that she often played at Blindness. Now wait a minute, this was unusual, because she never complained of illness or anything else, in fact, she didn’t complain about her eyes either, just the opposite, she played at having a true martyr complex toward them. Often we’d spend 12-16 hours in a hotel room while she was “blind.” I’d wait on her hand and foot (and cock) during these times. They’d begin casually enough, she’d simply announce that she couldn’t see and that would go on until she’d just as quietly say she could see again. This happened while she was driving- I’d grab the wheel—while we were walking—I’d lead her—while we were loving—I’d finish anyhow—in fact, this happened any old place she felt like it happening. It was a great little game, she didn’t have to worry, if she smacked up the car, or anything, the old lady would come to the rescue with lots of dough, wouldn’t she? Oh enough!
Continuing then, from about 1,500 words ago, as to why Joan and I didn’t live Happily Ever After; Very simple, we were given no chance. 

You see, as I drank the last Blood-Brother beer—I remember deciding in all seriousness that it was definitely the last one—2 plainclothesmen approached, asked if I was Neal C and promptly hauled me away! It seems Cherry Mary’s Mother, listening on the phone extension to my friend give my whereabouts, had called the police—and she was politically powerful! Why, why, after release on statutory rape with testifying flatly refused by panicky Mary and not a shred of evidence otherwise—flatly panicky, I continued to be held in jail charged with suspicion of Burglary! Of my poolhall hangout yet. Because the charge had a superficial plausibility, since I racked balls there a couple of times and knew the layout—I knew a lot of fearful moments before Capt. of Dicks admitted he knew I was clear all along, and released me finally weeks later. 

Joan had disappeared completely! 

The Joan Anderson Letter, by Neal Cassady, was originally published in the magazine Notes from Underground in 1964

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This week marks both the birth and death of Neal Cassady

By Jack Brummet, Counterculture Ed.

It is the anniversary of Neal Cassady's birth and death this week.  Most articles talk about him being the basis for Dean Moriarty is Kerouac's On The Road. That's true. But Neal Cassady's writing style strongly influenced Kerouac and even caused him to abandon his Thomas Wolfe-style expansive prose for his more rollicking and open ended style of writing. Check out Neal's wonderful, sad, and insane autobiography The First Third (which includes a selection of the letters that caused Kerouac to adopt his "spontaneous prosody"). 

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A Neal Cassady rap, annotated by Ken Babbs

By Jack Brummet, Beat Ed.


click to enlarge - Neal Cassady left, Jack Kerouac, Right

Kim Spurlock transcribed this Neal Cassady rap (probably from an acid test, since the Grateful Dead can be heard). It was annotated by Ken Kesey's close collaborator, Ken Babbs

Voice: Neal Cassady...Neal Cassady...

[Tentative Drumroll]

Neal: (OFF MIC; APPROACHING) I got the penguin(1) right here in my
pocket...Phil Phil(2) I just bought a three hundred & thirty-five dollar
fender mint Bic(3)...come again on that lemon a roasta beef(4)...Four
fingers(5) ya know are...I've forgotten it...that's just enough
see...trying to play ya see...(GROANING IN BACHGROUND) The claw(6) &
me...three inches the bigger thumb...and I said of course to the
Metro(7) as the...but it hides my thumb and also reveals my Greek
torso...well at 49th I said Spence(8) hadn't seen him since 51st...he
said move 2-49th. Nope moved to 51st. Well again Heinz(9) said...The
waiter in '56 beet the 6 seeds(10) he had. Seed law and marijuana...The
only writing I ever did was a laudatory(11)...But on marijuana
"oooooooo...," I was saying in the..."Are you alright in there on the
wall(12) Mr. Cassady?"...cause I was having these insights you see. I
only got 20 years on you.(13) I knew I should've worn more paisley.(14)
I double-crossed at...no...the son of the man(15) is about to mount the
podium. Grimsby(16) was impressed in a short drive. I said I'm serious
about America to Marco Greg(17)...at the last year you know we arrived
just in time.(18) Double park in Winnemucca(19)...speed er
endurance.(20) Six days it was. Finally she grabbed the Vick's
VapoRub(21) instead of the Vaeline it was and that was what ended it.
My first child '42 then(22)...Charlie Valencia(23) on Temple(24) where
we had an Acid Test(25)...but 1350(26) his father half Mexican half
Irish like Anthony Quinn(27) so he loved her you know...there was a
triumph of us. The only 3-way I ever had. Kerouac's not queer but my
present wife the fourth and he it was just a New Year's Eve
sortofa(28)...He was always looking for a colored girl(29)
Keroassady(30)...finally he found her Bedford-Stuyvessant and that was
the last time I committed suicide(31) I knew toward the Ford sign across
the Hudson(32)...gotta getta across this long Missouri that preacher
said VanHelLuther(33) I didn't see it.(34) Move on. Menopausal.(35)
Don't ask me how 20 years (36) I held 10 on the railroad(37) and 10 more
for...an I'll be dead a thousand years(38) see so if I don't do right
now right in it...Reb Parker(39) the same Acid Test then. He used to be
Al Collins all fat and sassy you know and but he was all skinny and
dressed in...you can work yourself into anything how do you get out of
it? 6 uh days, 6 glasses a day pretty soon your system demands it.
1000 days Aurobindo(40) says you've had it. Old Joe Alcoholic you know
we used to drink together but he went drinking. Gitcha enjoys but...Dry
is always D insteada T(41) so the second...a German
pornography(42)...(SINGING) "Burn..." Hmm each daay offered thou week
to week. O in The Name of The Christ don't call on that I say that's
another...then the next day November 1st is All Souls All Saints.(43)
He did nothin and I did nothin and finally nothin, there wasn't nothin
he wouldn't do for me and nothin I wouldn't do for him. We sat around
all the time doing nothin. 100 miles an hour goin a great 4 wheel
drift(44) he uh adjusting his goggles you know everybody in the audience
with their right foot but I can't heel and toe(45) I'm double left.(46)
I'll get the Pigpen(47) microphone going I've got to cut the
organ...Ginsberg(48) forced us up here. I went because it's a good
drive; Mt. Baker out of the Chillaquin Indian country in Oregon; the
lava beds and the guy(49) who was opposite brother Chuck's(50) Eugene
creamery should know the area. He was an editor who'll never make it
because of the rocky overhang.(51) So I drove up into the snow and found
you know...I excited all to turn him. Guy comes in last one outta the
mountains; Ed Sanders(52) leader...3 things I had: a flat tire, a place
to stay, & a joint. He handled all 3 immediately...couple years later I
found a course he had a couple wives a couple kids and everything but
anyway...it's true...yer home is...so anyway the ski-boy...I excited him
to move...a week...and I'm glad I didn't hear it...protected you
know...The minister: "I'll blow ya for money," he said-half hour later
she...what did she say...? He was listening to the radio and I said
"O..." I'd just gone thru...fortunate you know you throw off. Don't eat
when you're angry. Who was ever happy angry? Before all fixin
due...'53...a pleasure dome you see. Antrophy. Thank you...thank
you...I went...I used to have my 2-16.(53) I...left the a fleet of
course and finally the 4th largest union(54) we'll take that up but
first the guy...then the stockboy...and when I was replacing the 3rd man
from moving on Obetrol(55) changing too fast you know...the tires(56)
so...I lost my...extension.(57) Logical Positivism had a great increase
at UCLA recently they got Alcindor(58) but no water polo...what are we
gonna...? you all are surrounded...I've never found who was...I played
short short...outfield-no glove...you just need...I learned an illegal
pitch-caught Satch Paige(59) barehanded...after the 303 guard you know
had done me in cause the coach thought I was chicken. Why bother was
my...vein. The brain of the..."But Nell.(60) Now see here Hard Dick."
[Major Hoople/W.C. Fields voice] My wife medical secretary works for
Stiff Dr. Peck. Double reed.(61) From the second balcony Dillenger(62)
uh...the L5...I said to Robert Jones Melvin(63)...on the left he wears
these rings. A sensitive-we're all sensitives. Thinks it's alright to
charge to astrologize.(64)

The Embryo you know
goes thru the Fish Stage
but we didn't enter
until Ape Late.
Christ-Adam-Higher Soul
help us out thru
so the Cyclopses don't win
the Unicorn Brew.
We're here to Experience...
and finally Evolution
the Little Toe
we'll beat it tho-
The Odor of Sanctity.

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1. PENGUIN: Pocket book of ON THE ROAD by Jack Kerouac.
2. PHIL: Phil Lesh, bassist of the Grateful Dead.
3. BIC: Cigarette lighter, noted because Phil had no light. Five
o'clock in the morning at the Watts Acid Test, light barely
glimmering. Phil was still thumoing when Babbs shut down the
power. "No light! No light!" Phil screamed, but to no avail.
It didn't come back.
4. ROASTA BEEF: Riffing on the chow at the Straight-always the
worst, and Cassady was a truck driver's special man, hated
ratburgers.
5. FOUR FINGERS: Pertains to his flute playing, "Three finger
delight," he said, "no, that's masturbation," but in this case
he's threatening to play the flute like he always did while
driving the big bus Furthur, thus the groans from the musicians.
6. CLAW: His hand with the tip of thumb cut off. (See ON THE ROAD
for best explanation for how it happened.)
7. METRO: The law. Police station. Clenches his fist to hide the
thumb and reveal the torso, muscles tense.
8. SPENCE: Dick Spence, a connection, always drive past his place,
no telling what might be available.
9. HEINZ: As in '56 flavors in '57, or was it the other way around?
10. 6 SEEDS: busted for seeds the waiter was, can you believe it?
11. LAUDATORY: Refers to a 6 page letter to Gavin Arthur who visited
Cassady in San Quentin when Neal was doing two years for two
joints; lotta time on his hands. My brother's bar in Neal's
hometown of Denver has the letter on the wall.
12. THE WALL: Some of the best writings can be found on the shit-
house wall.
13. 20 YEARS: Cassady's a bit older than the audience in the
theater. He's being heckled.
14. PAISLEY: In vogue amongst the younger set; why not join in?
"If you want to be loved, be lovable," Cassady often said.
15. SON OF THE MAN: Christological reference to San Francisco's
Mayor's son. Chip Alioto.
16. Roger GRIMSBY: San Francisco television reporter.
17. MARCO GREG: Nightclub critic always thought Cassady was putting
everyone on. "Talks about cars a lot, doesn't he?"
18. JUST IN TIME: To save the lady from committing suicide, she's at
her nitwit's end.
19. WINNEMUCCA: Nevada: east of Reno on Interstate 80. Site of the
Mustang Ranch, a a barbed wire enclosed bordello. The manage-
ment dug Neal so much they didn;t charge him for services
rendered. Always a quick stop for Neal when heading East out
of Frisco.
20. ENDURANCE: "What, what? Consistency," Cassady said. "Not how you
come out of the blocks or make the first turn." You gotta be in
it for the long haul.
21. VIC'S VAPORUB: Mentholated version of the popular lubricant.
22. FIRST CHILD '42: One of many kids alleged to have been fathered
by a young Neal in Los Angeles and Denver.
23. CHARLIE VALENCIA: her boy friend.
24. TEMPLE: Street in L.A.
25. ACID TEST: Were held in L.A. in spring of '66, Cassady the star,
Grateful Dead the band, Pranksters the crew, Furthur the bus.
26. 1350: Street address on temple. Now a shrine to the CKC nuts.
(Cassady Kerouac Corso). The Cassady virus was brought across
the border on the bottom of the sneakers of a wetback. Cassady
was all man. From the top of his head to the bottom of his
feet-to the very sole. They say clothes can't go to heaven but
those shoes had sole. Other soles picked up the Cassady Virus
and it's since spread across country and now into Europe.
"After us, the deluge," Kerouac said, a soulful man.
27. ANTHONY QUINN: the actor who was shooting a movie called Guns
for San Sebastian in Mexico and involved with Neal's last lover.
She had to make a choice between Neal or Quinn, she chose Neal.
28. SORTOFA: Read all about it in Carolyn Cassady's book, HEARTBEAT.
29. COLORED GIRL: Neal and Jack took her to Neal's house in Los
Gatos and past Carolyn asleep and up the pull-down stairs to the
attic, pushing the girl's ass to get her through the hole when
Carolyn woke up. It was Neal's birthday and he was supposed to
be wining and dining Carolyn under candlelight but Jack called
to say he'd been busted, could Neal come bail him out? "Back
in 'alf a mo' darling," and that was hours ago the candles have
burned out Carolyn is pissed. What do you think she did to get
even?
30. KEROASSADY: the composite Jack/Neal: a hybrid personality that
did 'em both in.
31. SUICIDE: After Carolyn got her revenge, Neal was so devastated
he sat in the car with a gun in his hand all night fighting over
suicide being wrong versus I don't wanna go. He rejected
suicide as an option and decided to go home and beg.
32. FORD SIGN: Billboard where you turn West driving from Manhattan
to the coast.
33. VANHELLUTHER: Preacher who lectured Neal on the wonders of
Valballa, home of the warriors slain in battle.
34. DIDN'T SEE IT: Blessed are the peacemakers-for they shall be
called the sons of God. "There is no excuse for violence,"
Cassady said, "except when making love."
35. MENOPAUSAL: Just as the woman stops bleeding, the peacemaker
declines to shed blood. The grace that comes with age.
36. 20 YEARS: My, how time do fly. To think, 20 years gone by
already, like a blink of the eye. Kerouac said, "Cassady knew
time."
37. RAILROAD: Neal was a brakeman on the railroad for ten years,
with an impeccable record, never missed a train, but when he
went to prison, lost his job, his pension, his wife, his home.
38. 10 MORE FOR: For what? Not even Cassady could predict that. But
he still was going to give it all he got in whatever time he got
left. DEAD A THOUSAND YEARS: the orthodox lapse between
incarnations.
39. REB PARKER/AL COLLINS: Old runaround friend of Cassady's he ran
into at the Acid Test.
40. AUROBINDO: Savant who knew body functions from having existed
at one time or another as every organ in the body, so he was a
soothsayer alright-could tell you straight what alcohol did to
you, and Cassady was always scared of the booze what with
growing up on skidrow Larimer Street in Denver with his wino
father.
41. D INSTEADA T: A Nealish proto AA injunctive?
42. PORNOGRAPHY: Those German drink so much beer it's obscene.
43. ALL SAINTS Church: Downtown Denver where Neal was an alter boy.
44. 4 WHEEL DRIFT: Auto racing. A Stirling Moss technique. Going
around corners giving it the gas and breaking at the same time.
You slide but don't cartwheel if you do it just right.
45. HEEL AND TOE: Heel on the brake, toe on the gas.
46. DOUBLE LEFT: Cassady was left handed, so left-footed too, and
couldn't manipulate the heel and toe with his right foot.
47. PIGPEN: Ron McKermnan: vocalist and keyboardist for the
Grateful Dead. Since deceased.
48. GINSBERG: Allen the ubiquitous poet.
49. THE GUY: Luther Frease, RIP, who worked at the Springfield News
across the street from the Springfield Creamery.
50. BROTHER CHUCK: Ken Kesey's brother, who owns and operates the
Springfield Creamery (not the Eugene Creamery) Chuck is also an
original Merry Prankster who was on the bus, Furthur, in 1964
when Cassady drove.
51. ROCKY OVERHANG: Luther's furrowed brow.
52. ED SANDERS: Leader of the Fugs, radical music group of the 60's.
He also wrote book, THE FAMILY, about Charles Manson.
53. 2-16: Union card. He's riffing about the fleet, never having
been in the Navy or any other branch of service, being color-
blind..."I was out there on the grass and all," Cassady said,
"and to me it looked red. The grass red? You're nuts. I was
so mad at that grass I learned cars."
54. 4TH LARGEST UNION: Railroad brakemen.
55. OBETROL: Great speed. An OBETROL 10 tablet contained: 2.5 mg.
each of Methamphetamine saccharate, Methamphetamine
hydrocloride, Amphetamine sulfate, & Dextroamphetamine
sulfate. OBETROL 20's contained twice this potency.
56. THE TIRES: at the Los Gatos Tire Company while on parole after
stretch in San Quentin.
57. EXTENSION: for his socket wrench.
58. ALCINDOR: Later known as Kareem Abdul Jabbar.
59. SATCH PAIGE: Ancient Negro pitcher finally made it to the big
leagues with the Indians at age of sixty-something.
60. NELL: The nurse in W.C. Fields comedy.
61. STIFF DR. PECK, DOUBLE REED: Carolyn worked for a spell as
receptionist to Radiological Associates; Dr.'s Clemmer M. Peck,
MD, & Robert H. Reid, MD. DOUBLE REED: The oboe, most difficult
of instruments to play. You gotta get just the right lip on it.
62. DILLINGER: John, the 30's gangster shot down as he left The
Biograph movie theater, Chicago-July, 1934.
63. ROBERT JONES MELVIN: Religious leader who got rich from
donations, but after all, gotta drive a Caddilac, you think
they'll give money to a man in a clunker?
64. CHARGE TO ASTROLOGIZE: No money changers in the temple

[Material for this piece researched and collected as part of an ongoing
project: THE CASSADY FILE.  For more information write: THE CASSADY FILE: POB 630: COOPER STATION: NEW YORK 10276]

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"Magic Trip - Ken Kesey's search for a kool place" - the documentary is out

We are really looking forward to the documentary "Magic Trip - Ken Kesey's search for a kool place,"  by Alex Gibney and Alison Ellwood. 

The clips show some pretty sweet footage of Ken, Ken Babbs, The Merry Pranksters, The Grateful Dead, and Neal Cassady.  You can watch the movie on demand in various outlets (iTunes, HBO, Comcast on demand, etc.).   Check out their website here.  Interestingly, it's done by the same guys who recently released the grindhouse flick "Hobo With A Shotgun."

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A Neal Cassady Rap (with annotations)

click to enlarge - Neal Cassady left, Jack Kerouac, Right

Kim Spurlock transcribed this Neal Cassady rap (probably from an acid test, since the Grateful Dead can be heard). It was annotated by Ken Kesey's close collaborator, Ken Babbs

Voice: Neal Cassady...Neal Cassady...

[Tentative Drumroll]

Neal: (OFF MIC; APPROACHING) I got the penguin(1) right here in my
pocket...Phil Phil(2) I just bought a three hundred & thirty-five dollar
fender mint Bic(3)...come again on that lemon a roasta beef(4)...Four
fingers(5) ya know are...I've forgotten it...that's just enough
see...trying to play ya see...(GROANING IN BACHGROUND) The claw(6) &
me...three inches the bigger thumb...and I said of course to the
Metro(7) as the...but it hides my thumb and also reveals my Greek
torso...well at 49th I said Spence(8) hadn't seen him since 51st...he
said move 2-49th. Nope moved to 51st. Well again Heinz(9) said...The
waiter in '56 beet the 6 seeds(10) he had. Seed law and marijuana...The
only writing I ever did was a laudatory(11)...But on marijuana
"oooooooo...," I was saying in the..."Are you alright in there on the
wall(12) Mr. Cassady?"...cause I was having these insights you see. I
only got 20 years on you.(13) I knew I should've worn more paisley.(14)
I double-crossed at...no...the son of the man(15) is about to mount the
podium. Grimsby(16) was impressed in a short drive. I said I'm serious
about America to Marco Greg(17)...at the last year you know we arrived
just in time.(18) Double park in Winnemucca(19)...speed er
endurance.(20) Six days it was. Finally she grabbed the Vick's
VapoRub(21) instead of the Vaeline it was and that was what ended it.
My first child '42 then(22)...Charlie Valencia(23) on Temple(24) where
we had an Acid Test(25)...but 1350(26) his father half Mexican half
Irish like Anthony Quinn(27) so he loved her you know...there was a
triumph of us. The only 3-way I ever had. Kerouac's not queer but my
present wife the fourth and he it was just a New Year's Eve
sortofa(28)...He was always looking for a colored girl(29)
Keroassady(30)...finally he found her Bedford-Stuyvessant and that was
the last time I committed suicide(31) I knew toward the Ford sign across
the Hudson(32)...gotta getta across this long Missouri that preacher
said VanHelLuther(33) I didn't see it.(34) Move on. Menopausal.(35)
Don't ask me how 20 years (36) I held 10 on the railroad(37) and 10 more
for...an I'll be dead a thousand years(38) see so if I don't do right
now right in it...Reb Parker(39) the same Acid Test then. He used to be
Al Collins all fat and sassy you know and but he was all skinny and
dressed in...you can work yourself into anything how do you get out of
it? 6 uh days, 6 glasses a day pretty soon your system demands it.
1000 days Aurobindo(40) says you've had it. Old Joe Alcoholic you know
we used to drink together but he went drinking. Gitcha enjoys but...Dry
is always D insteada T(41) so the second...a German
pornography(42)...(SINGING) "Burn..." Hmm each daay offered thou week
to week. O in The Name of The Christ don't call on that I say that's
another...then the next day November 1st is All Souls All Saints.(43)
He did nothin and I did nothin and finally nothin, there wasn't nothin
he wouldn't do for me and nothin I wouldn't do for him. We sat around
all the time doing nothin. 100 miles an hour goin a great 4 wheel
drift(44) he uh adjusting his goggles you know everybody in the audience
with their right foot but I can't heel and toe(45) I'm double left.(46)
I'll get the Pigpen(47) microphone going I've got to cut the
organ...Ginsberg(48) forced us up here. I went because it's a good
drive; Mt. Baker out of the Chillaquin Indian country in Oregon; the
lava beds and the guy(49) who was opposite brother Chuck's(50) Eugene
creamery should know the area. He was an editor who'll never make it
because of the rocky overhang.(51) So I drove up into the snow and found
you know...I excited all to turn him. Guy comes in last one outta the
mountains; Ed Sanders(52) leader...3 things I had: a flat tire, a place
to stay, & a joint. He handled all 3 immediately...couple years later I
found a course he had a couple wives a couple kids and everything but
anyway...it's true...yer home is...so anyway the ski-boy...I excited him
to move...a week...and I'm glad I didn't hear it...protected you
know...The minister: "I'll blow ya for money," he said-half hour later
she...what did she say...? He was listening to the radio and I said
"O..." I'd just gone thru...fortunate you know you throw off. Don't eat
when you're angry. Who was ever happy angry? Before all fixin
due...'53...a pleasure dome you see. Antrophy. Thank you...thank
you...I went...I used to have my 2-16.(53) I...left the a fleet of
course and finally the 4th largest union(54) we'll take that up but
first the guy...then the stockboy...and when I was replacing the 3rd man
from moving on Obetrol(55) changing too fast you know...the tires(56)
so...I lost my...extension.(57) Logical Positivism had a great increase
at UCLA recently they got Alcindor(58) but no water polo...what are we
gonna...? you all are surrounded...I've never found who was...I played
short short...outfield-no glove...you just need...I learned an illegal
pitch-caught Satch Paige(59) barehanded...after the 303 guard you know
had done me in cause the coach thought I was chicken. Why bother was
my...vein. The brain of the..."But Nell.(60) Now see here Hard Dick."
[Major Hoople/W.C. Fields voice] My wife medical secretary works for
Stiff Dr. Peck. Double reed.(61) From the second balcony Dillenger(62)
uh...the L5...I said to Robert Jones Melvin(63)...on the left he wears
these rings. A sensitive-we're all sensitives. Thinks it's alright to
charge to astrologize.(64)

The Embryo you know
goes thru the Fish Stage
but we didn't enter
until Ape Late.
Christ-Adam-Higher Soul
help us out thru
so the Cyclopses don't win
the Unicorn Brew.
We're here to Experience...
and finally Evolution
the Little Toe
we'll beat it tho-
The Odor of Sanctity.


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1. PENGUIN: Pocket book of ON THE ROAD by Jack Kerouac.
2. PHIL: Phil Lesh, bassist of the Grateful Dead.
3. BIC: Cigarette lighter, noted because Phil had no light. Five
o'clock in the morning at the Watts Acid Test, light barely
glimmering. Phil was still thumoing when Babbs shut down the
power. "No light! No light!" Phil screamed, but to no avail.
It didn't come back.
4. ROASTA BEEF: Riffing on the chow at the Straight-always the
worst, and Cassady was a truck driver's special man, hated
ratburgers.
5. FOUR FINGERS: Pertains to his flute playing, "Three finger
delight," he said, "no, that's masturbation," but in this case
he's threatening to play the flute like he always did while
driving the big bus Furthur, thus the groans from the musicians.
6. CLAW: His hand with the tip of thumb cut off. (See ON THE ROAD
for best explanation for how it happened.)
7. METRO: The law. Police station. Clenches his fist to hide the
thumb and reveal the torso, muscles tense.
8. SPENCE: Dick Spence, a connection, always drive past his place,
no telling what might be available.
9. HEINZ: As in '56 flavors in '57, or was it the other way around?
10. 6 SEEDS: busted for seeds the waiter was, can you believe it?
11. LAUDATORY: Refers to a 6 page letter to Gavin Arthur who visited
Cassady in San Quentin when Neal was doing two years for two
joints; lotta time on his hands. My brother's bar in Neal's
hometown of Denver has the letter on the wall.
12. THE WALL: Some of the best writings can be found on the shit-
house wall.
13. 20 YEARS: Cassady's a bit older than the audience in the
theater. He's being heckled.
14. PAISLEY: In vogue amongst the younger set; why not join in?
"If you want to be loved, be lovable," Cassady often said.
15. SON OF THE MAN: Christological reference to San Francisco's
Mayor's son. Chip Alioto.
16. Roger GRIMSBY: San Francisco television reporter.
17. MARCO GREG: Nightclub critic always thought Cassady was putting
everyone on. "Talks about cars a lot, doesn't he?"
18. JUST IN TIME: To save the lady from committing suicide, she's at
her nitwit's end.
19. WINNEMUCCA: Nevada: east of Reno on Interstate 80. Site of the
Mustang Ranch, a a barbed wire enclosed bordello. The manage-
ment dug Neal so much they didn;t charge him for services
rendered. Always a quick stop for Neal when heading East out
of Frisco.
20. ENDURANCE: "What, what? Consistency," Cassady said. "Not how you
come out of the blocks or make the first turn." You gotta be in
it for the long haul.
21. VIC'S VAPORUB: Mentholated version of the popular lubricant.
22. FIRST CHILD '42: One of many kids alleged to have been fathered
by a young Neal in Los Angeles and Denver.
23. CHARLIE VALENCIA: her boy friend.
24. TEMPLE: Street in L.A.
25. ACID TEST: Were held in L.A. in spring of '66, Cassady the star,
Grateful Dead the band, Pranksters the crew, Furthur the bus.
26. 1350: Street address on temple. Now a shrine to the CKC nuts.
(Cassady Kerouac Corso). The Cassady virus was brought across
the border on the bottom of the sneakers of a wetback. Cassady
was all man. From the top of his head to the bottom of his
feet-to the very sole. They say clothes can't go to heaven but
those shoes had sole. Other soles picked up the Cassady Virus
and it's since spread across country and now into Europe.
"After us, the deluge," Kerouac said, a soulful man.
27. ANTHONY QUINN: the actor who was shooting a movie called Guns
for San Sebastian in Mexico and involved with Neal's last lover.
She had to make a choice between Neal or Quinn, she chose Neal.
28. SORTOFA: Read all about it in Carolyn Cassady's book, HEARTBEAT.
29. COLORED GIRL: Neal and Jack took her to Neal's house in Los
Gatos and past Carolyn asleep and up the pull-down stairs to the
attic, pushing the girl's ass to get her through the hole when
Carolyn woke up. It was Neal's birthday and he was supposed to
be wining and dining Carolyn under candlelight but Jack called
to say he'd been busted, could Neal come bail him out? "Back
in 'alf a mo' darling," and that was hours ago the candles have
burned out Carolyn is pissed. What do you think she did to get
even?
30. KEROASSADY: the composite Jack/Neal: a hybrid personality that
did 'em both in.
31. SUICIDE: After Carolyn got her revenge, Neal was so devastated
he sat in the car with a gun in his hand all night fighting over
suicide being wrong versus I don't wanna go. He rejected
suicide as an option and decided to go home and beg.
32. FORD SIGN: Billboard where you turn West driving from Manhattan
to the coast.
33. VANHELLUTHER: Preacher who lectured Neal on the wonders of
Valballa, home of the warriors slain in battle.
34. DIDN'T SEE IT: Blessed are the peacemakers-for they shall be
called the sons of God. "There is no excuse for violence,"
Cassady said, "except when making love."
35. MENOPAUSAL: Just as the woman stops bleeding, the peacemaker
declines to shed blood. The grace that comes with age.
36. 20 YEARS: My, how time do fly. To think, 20 years gone by
already, like a blink of the eye. Kerouac said, "Cassady knew
time."
37. RAILROAD: Neal was a brakeman on the railroad for ten years,
with an impeccable record, never missed a train, but when he
went to prison, lost his job, his pension, his wife, his home.
38. 10 MORE FOR: For what? Not even Cassady could predict that. But
he still was going to give it all he got in whatever time he got
left. DEAD A THOUSAND YEARS: the orthodox lapse between
incarnations.
39. REB PARKER/AL COLLINS: Old runaround friend of Cassady's he ran
into at the Acid Test.
40. AUROBINDO: Savant who knew body functions from having existed
at one time or another as every organ in the body, so he was a
soothsayer alright-could tell you straight what alcohol did to
you, and Cassady was always scared of the booze what with
growing up on skidrow Larimer Street in Denver with his wino
father.
41. D INSTEADA T: A Nealish proto AA injunctive?
42. PORNOGRAPHY: Those German drink so much beer it's obscene.
43. ALL SAINTS Church: Downtown Denver where Neal was an alter boy.
44. 4 WHEEL DRIFT: Auto racing. A Stirling Moss technique. Going
around corners giving it the gas and breaking at the same time.
You slide but don't cartwheel if you do it just right.
45. HEEL AND TOE: Heel on the brake, toe on the gas.
46. DOUBLE LEFT: Cassady was left handed, so left-footed too, and
couldn't manipulate the heel and toe with his right foot.
47. PIGPEN: Ron McKermnan: vocalist and keyboardist for the
Grateful Dead. Since deceased.
48. GINSBERG: Allen the ubiquitous poet.
49. THE GUY: Luther Frease, RIP, who worked at the Springfield News
across the street from the Springfield Creamery.
50. BROTHER CHUCK: Ken Kesey's brother, who owns and operates the
Springfield Creamery (not the Eugene Creamery) Chuck is also an
original Merry Prankster who was on the bus, Furthur, in 1964
when Cassady drove.
51. ROCKY OVERHANG: Luther's furrowed brow.
52. ED SANDERS: Leader of the Fugs, radical music group of the 60's.
He also wrote book, THE FAMILY, about Charles Manson.
53. 2-16: Union card. He's riffing about the fleet, never having
been in the Navy or any other branch of service, being color-
blind..."I was out there on the grass and all," Cassady said,
"and to me it looked red. The grass red? You're nuts. I was
so mad at that grass I learned cars."
54. 4TH LARGEST UNION: Railroad brakemen.
55. OBETROL: Great speed. An OBETROL 10 tablet contained: 2.5 mg.
each of Methamphetamine saccharate, Methamphetamine
hydrocloride, Amphetamine sulfate, & Dextroamphetamine
sulfate. OBETROL 20's contained twice this potency.
56. THE TIRES: at the Los Gatos Tire Company while on parole after
stretch in San Quentin.
57. EXTENSION: for his socket wrench.
58. ALCINDOR: Later known as Kareem Abdul Jabbar.
59. SATCH PAIGE: Ancient Negro pitcher finally made it to the big
leagues with the Indians at age of sixty-something.
60. NELL: The nurse in W.C. Fields comedy.
61. STIFF DR. PECK, DOUBLE REED: Carolyn worked for a spell as
receptionist to Radiological Associates; Dr.'s Clemmer M. Peck,
MD, & Robert H. Reid, MD. DOUBLE REED: The oboe, most difficult
of instruments to play. You gotta get just the right lip on it.
62. DILLINGER: John, the 30's gangster shot down as he left The
Biograph movie theater, Chicago-July, 1934.
63. ROBERT JONES MELVIN: Religious leader who got rich from
donations, but after all, gotta drive a Caddilac, you think
they'll give money to a man in a clunker?
64. CHARGE TO ASTROLOGIZE: No money changers in the temple.
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[Material for this piece researched and collected as part of an ongoing
project: THE CASSADY FILE.
For more information write: THE CASSADY FILE: POB 630: COOPER STATION: NEW YORK 10276]
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The Great Sex Letter

A short film--a video performance of Neal Cassady's famous sex letter to Jack Kerouac. It is quite a letter. If you want to read it, pick up Neal's amazing autobiography The First Third, published by City Light books...



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Jack Kerouac's On The Road Turns Fifty (includes video of Jack reading from On The Road)

Jack Kerouac's On The Road was published nearly fifty years ago (on September 5). It is still taught in college, and it has spoken to several generations of readers now as well as being one of the seminal texts of both the 60's counterculture and the 50's beat subculture.

I devoured this book when I was in high school, and many times afterwards. It led me to the poetry of Allen Ginsberg (who we bumped into off and on in our NYC days), and Lawrence Ferlinghetti (the last man standing among the beats), Gregory Corso, William Burroughs, Diane DiPrima, John Clellon Holmes, Lew Welch, Phillip Whalen, Gary Snyder, and, of course, Neal Cassady, and the next generation of Ken Kesey, Jean Shepherd, Ed Sanders, Jim Carroll, and others.

The hero of some of Jack's novels, Neal Cassady, was a link between the beats and the next generation; he "starred" in several of Kerouac's novels, but also went on to pilot the bus Furthur for Ken Kesey and his band of Merry Pranksters (detailed in Tom Wolfe's The Electric Kool-aid Acid Test), as well as rap as a performer at the infamous Acid Tests. [Note: I use the word rap here as it was used in the 60's, meaning to speak in an extended improvisatory mode]. What many of us learned from the book was that you could write about America and not necessarily have to wear the straightjacket of our European antecedents. And that you could write a book patterned on the actual America around us. . .a book that found the rhythms of the road, and detailed what we now know were just the beginnings of being connected. They connected by routes and highways; we have found new, but not better ways to make that connection.



Jack Kerouac and Neal Cassady (a/k/a Dean Moriarty)


What I have enjoyed about this 50th anniversary is reading the critical acclaim for Kerouac, and in particular for On The Road. The New York Times fell all over itself this weekend, detailing Kerouac's enormous cultural influence, but also not ignoring his impact on literature. His influence on rock and roll (interestingly, he wasn't a fan) has been enormous. In many ways, Jack Kerouac was the first modern "indy" writer (I would have to put William Blake and Walt Whitman as the first). All these years later, On The Road still sells 100,000 copies a year (although I suspect it will outstrip that this year).



My favorite works from Kerouac, the beats, their disciples and offshoots:

Kerouac: On The Road, Lonesome Traveler, Visions of Neal, Scattered Poems, Book of Dreams, Big Sur, Maggie Cassidy
Neal Cassady: The First Third (memoir), Selected Letters
Allen Ginsberg: Planet News, Howl
Lawrence Ferlinghetti: All the poetry
Phillip Whalen: On Bear's Head
William Burroughs: Naked Lunch, Junky, Exterminator, The Yage Letters, Cities of the Red Night, The Place of Dead Roads, The Burroughs File, The Adding Machine
Hunter S. Thompson: The Gonzo Papers, Volumes 1,2,3, The curse of Lono, Fear and Loathing on the Campaign Trail, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, The Rum Diaries, The Hells Angels
Lew Welch: Ring of Bone
Ed Sanders: The Family, Tales of Beatnik Glory, 1968: A History in verse, Love and Fame in New York
Diane DiPrima: Memoirs of a Beatnik , Pieces of a song, Loba,
Denise Levertov: Selected Poems
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Video: Neal Cassady's famous "Great Sex Letter" to Jack Kerouac

Some folks created a video based on a reading of Neal Cassady's famous "Great Sex Letter" to Jack Kerouac. This is classic Cassady. Kerouac often said the letters from Neal were what transmogrified his writing, from his earlier Wolfe-esque work to the spontaneous prose for which he became famous. The letter, as many of Cassady's were, is a hoot. . .
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